At the tip of the cliff...

                A graduating student lives her life to the fullest before leaving her Alma Mater. A student that does every single bit of thing that can please her, makes her life seem to be the best among the rest. She carries on with her life and that she lives strong. She left marks on different people, she fell down and still she managed to stand up and show the world that she can.

                I’ve been that girl, always will be that girl. As I reminisce the past from the start of our classes, was it really that fast and that long already? Have we gone so far that we are almost at the edge? Close to the cliff and near the end of our high school life.

                I made several, no, maybe a lot of mistakes but they made me turn out to be the person I am today. In the case of studies, I’ve done better than all the other years of my high school. I have been more studious than the way I was before. I took notes on all my subjects, listened to the discussions of my teachers and when in time of quizzes and tests, I review all the notes that I have just to get high scores on my tests.

                In the time of socialization, I interact with other people just to make new friends and even be a better person. I socialize just to have fun and even understand how other people see differently on other horizons about the life of and sight of other people.

                In the parts of my life about my family, I understand better how much a specific person in our life especially our parents and siblings are dear, I learned to give them importance, I understood how life works and be the best it can be when it comes to realizations.

                In the section of love, I’ve made one of the biggest mistakes of my life on the person I chose. I gave trust and importance to the person who mistreated me and didn’t even care how I really felt about love. He made me believe that love is not real but then again, I have the part of me that still believes in it because someone new and I wish the last would be able to make me remember how much love really feels. He may be younger than me but he thinks more maturely than any person that I have ever encountered in love.

                My year as a Senior student is almost at its end but I am doing my best to make memories and one day be able to recall them. Life doesn’t end here, it is just the beginning and as soon as we leave, I’ll be a renewed person, have a new life and carry on with whatever mistakes and lessons I have learned in the battlefield of life. The time has come to leave and now I am going to start over again.

                High School is at the tip and I’m just beginning to understand how life offers everything. High School is great, it made me turn into the person who I am right now, the person who is ready to conquer the part of life where the battlefield is more difficult.

                Life makes us who we are and with every end, there is a new beginning that molds us.

Future Engineer

                A person wearing a lab coat, conducting several and various experiments, formulating different kinds of materials to make life better. That is how I see myself in the future. I’ve advanced to the time I already have a job and a wonderful life.

                But imagining myself in a toga of Saint Louis University, one of the Dean’s Listers and somehow a person with flying colors or even as one of the Cum Laude of the graduates. This has got to be my best imagination yet, seeing my parents and brother so proud of me. I don’t know how I could reach that state but I know deep inside me that it is what I really want in my life, to make my family proud of me.

                As of now, I’m still a High School Student (4^th Year) and I have really thought of it and understood that I’d like to become an Engineer just like my brother and father, my brother is a Mechanical Engineer, my father is a Civil Engineer and someday I would like to be the Chemical Engineer of the family.

                I know that sometimes, thinking of me in the future is a rash thing to do. I am not rushing or pushing myself too hard but that is really my dream in life.

                What my dream is will be the future I would like to have. My dream is my future because without my dream, I would not be right here just to accept my fate. NO! Life didn’t intend me to do such stuff; it is just a matter of action so that I’d be able to have the life that I always wanted.

                What I want is what I dream about and what I dream about is my future. My future depends on how I can control it and how I will control it.

Change starts within me

                Lately I’ve been missing out on the fun. Lately I’ve been that person in our barkada who is very KILL JOY. And lately I had the time to think if my experiences in life taught me to evolve into something better or if it just made me feel worse about myself and caused the destruction of my life.

                I don’t see change as a bad thing, it just depends on how the person let’s something sink in to himself. Life is all about change. Sooner or later, a person will change unknowingly, he/she might not be able to notice but other people would see the difference from the old friend of theirs into becoming a renewed friend that will again make another mark on them.

                Change is something to be accepted, whatever the choice of a person might be, he/she should still have the total and pure support of the people that is dear to him/her.

                I have been observing myself; people say that something in me is new, that something is not the same, and that I wasn’t the girl I used to be. They say that I’ve really changes, some people hate that I changed and some people love that something different came out from me. I kept in mind that I can never convince a person to change if I myself will not do it and apply every bit of advice I made.

                I know that at times, I prefer to be alone so that even though I’m mad, no person will be affected and that nobody would get hurt. There are also times that I want a companion so that I won’t feel left out. It has already been a while since I got the chance to look back at myself.

                I may not be perfect but at least I try to be for myself and all the people that expect so much from me. I am the type of a person that changes herself through every experience and I am proud that I started with me.

Kannawidan Festival

                Kannawidan is a local term for traditional practices, Kannawidan is normally mistaken to be the day when Ilocos Sur was separated from Ilocos Norte.

                As of now, it has become an occasion where the people strengthen the Ilocano Culture, the time when Ilocos Sur recognizes the sons and daughters that have brought honor to the province. Just to celebrate the Ilocano spirit that continues to burn in the heart of many and the way that we attract so many tourists.

                Every year, there are various activities that people engage in to feel the warm welcome of the said event. The kinds of activities that are carving your talent in the field of arts, music, dance, drama and other spectacular talents. As understood, the event lasts for a week or so. This year, it started at January 30, 2014 but I think it will tentatively end on February 05, 2014, depending on the situation.

                At the case of being an Ilocano, I really think that this event is a great time for the Ilocanos to gather and bond with each other. A rare moment in every year where all the people of Vigan and some people in Ilocos Sur are willing to celebrate.

                Not all are pleased but still, I appreciate how much effort the people in Ilocos Sur have given just to make every year as unique as can be.            

                A FESTIVITY OF LOVE TO YOUR OWN LAND!

New Year, Same Me...

                As the year passed us by, how many people have we thanked for being a part of our previous year? Have we ever had the time to reminisce all the things that we made and tried to understand the lessons it gave to us?

                When New Year comes, there’s that apocalypse of people saying the “New Year, New Me” thing. As I grew older, it occurred then to me that it became such a wasteful way of promising oneself about change and unfortunately will not continue to do it. It seems to be a chant and not something that people really care about and put to heart as they say it.

                While 2014 was starting, I was getting ready for those texts, posts on Facebook, tweets on Twitter about those lies that they will change. Somehow, it did not happen! Why? Because the Number Game was popularized by the Twitter Society and eventually copied by the Facebook People. I got pissed with all those numbers seen in my News Feed but I became thankful after a while because I realized that people were not talking about change and nonsense about their lives. Yet, I still don’t get the point why people say such words but can’t do it anyway. I always thought and knew that action speaks louder than words, so why keep talking when you can just do it?

                I’ve always been wondering but now I get the point of people saying those “New Year, New Me” crap every single time that they reach a New Year. They are just using those to make themselves feel that they can really make efforts and even change. But I wonder when will be the time that people will seriously do what they say and stop their nonsense reasons why they can’t. All they need to do is make some effort.

                And in life, promises aren’t supposed to be broken. Life must carry on and only change when needed, not when every New Year comes, we swear and never do it. That is just plain rude to our decency. Better not change than to lie.

Life well spent...

                Another 3 months conquered and some wasted. Time well spent and understood with unforgettable memories. I just realized that time passed so fast, it never occurred to me that it would be 8 moths that I have already used up. 2 months left before I leave important people behind and say goodbye.

                2k13 has ended with so much happy and sad memories I made with different people. My mom has been open to me and somehow she lets me go out with my friends without asking too many questions unlike before. But that isn’t the main reason why I liked this year. This year was made to make me remember good friends, people that I treat as family and sometimes call them “Mama”, “Anak”, “Daddy” and whatsoever. It depends on who the person is, I may not call them my best friends but they are my best friends (I think, but still, my BEST best friend will always be one person), it will make me remember that sacrificing to someone I love is worth it.

                My 3^rd grading period was a blast, maybe I have some bad experiences but then again, I got the point why it happened, to test how I am and how mature I can be. I have been so self centered that I became selfish. Then time made me realize how to live in a world where life must have sacrifices and caring. I learned that although I lost some dear friends and loved ones, I could still stand up and face reality without expecting too much from my dreams.

                I made good memories. Friends have been found, at one of the most desperate times I had, I realized that there are a lot of people willing to make me happy and tell me that everything is going to be fine. I realized that I have so many friends willing to support my decisions and help me move forward to my life. People making me laugh and telling me that everything is going to be fine because I have them that love me so much and would never leave me behind like normal people would do to me.

                I was still an “isip bata” when I entered my 4^th year life but now I am more mature than what I expect myself to be. The 8 moths I have well understood and taken as a lesson.

                Life well spent. Memories made. Love created to people I love.